The She Male Experiment

The mirror has spat societal lies at me throughout a tortured lifetime. My name is Sofia and you'll get to know me as such, but for most of my life I lived as Mike. My family has known me as a gay man since I was in my late teens. Before that I was the shy, often misunderstood boy who was handsome and well-liked. Go back a little further and you'll see a boy who preferred playing house to running around with a football...but none of that really matters. My real story, the one covered in a greasy layer of iniquity and come soaked cash, begins when I finally understand that I'm not really gay. To fully comprehend the hell that has been churning inside of me you first have to understand that not all men who fuck other men are gay. Some of us are simply women trapped in the wrong body. Imagine looking into a mirror and never understanding what you see. Imagine hating the person the world sees with such vehemence you want to tear your skin off, re-sew it, and then put it on like a dress. My face is wrong. My body is wrong. Most of the time I think my brain is wrong. The one thing I know to be right is what happens when I put on makeup, slide my hairless body into a slinky lingerie nightie, and slip my feet into high heels. I wait in the near dark for a knock on the door. I wait for another lascivious client, one curious about the joys of my flesh. I hunger for him too, but not because I long to fuck him. There will be sex, but it's something the man is going to pay for. I've been living this reality my entire life, churning and burning one tortured layer of skin away a time. I may not have known it from the beginning, but every decision I ever made brought me closer to this moment. I've been living my entire life as an experiment, and it's almost time to reveal myself to the world. I am not a man. I am not a woman. I am both. I am...The She-Male Experiment.

Author: Sofia Clark
Publisher: Createspace Independent Publishing Platform
Published: 07/08/2015
Pages: 118
Binding Type: Paperback
Weight: 0.37lbs
Size: 9.02h x 5.98w x 0.25d
ISBN13: 9781514640210
ISBN10: 151464021X
BISAC Categories:
- Biography & Autobiography | LGBTQ+

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