We Carry Smoke and Paper: Essays on the Grief and Hope of Conversion

Answering an unexpected call to faith in her thirties, Melody Gee contends with what saying "yes" to conversion requires of an adopted daughter of Chinese immigrants. Faced with a new framework for her place in the world, grief and doubt shadow her tentative steps toward becoming a believer. She looks for answers and consolation in her family's story of immigration trauma and cultural assimilation, in the ways their burdens and limitations made her answer-seeking both impossible and inevitable.
In essays that explore the parallels between conversion and language acquisition, isolated liturgies, cultural inheritances, stalled initiations, disrupted storytelling, and adoption, Gee examines conversion's grief and hope, losses and gains, hauntings and promises. We Carry Smoke and Paper is a memoir about what we owe to those who sacrifice everything for us, and it is about the many conversions in a lifetime that turn our heads via whispers and shouts, calling us to ourselves.


Author: Melody S. Gee
Publisher: University of Iowa Press
Published: 10/15/2024
Pages: 200
Binding Type: Paperback
Weight: 0.60lbs
Size: 8.10h x 5.30w x 0.70d
ISBN13: 9781609389758
ISBN10: 1609389751
BISAC Categories:
- Biography & Autobiography | Memoirs
- Literary Collections | American | Asian American & Pacific Islander
- Literary Collections | Subjects & Themes | Religious & Inspirational